Dear "everyone who has ever disappointed me,"
Fuck all of you. You have no idea what sincerity is, how rare it is and how to cherish it. None of you deserve the emotion I gave you. Were it not for the lessons you all taught me, our interactions together would have been completely pointless, a waste of both of our time. This lesson was, "expect nothing from those who refuse love for the sake of their own pride." You disgust me and I pity you for being so blind and narrow minded. At the climax of your insults to my feelings towards you, none of you deserve (nor will ever deserve) a fraction of what I may, or may not have felt for you; be you a former friend or something more. May you one day know what it feels like to be on the wrong end of one sided love. It is a testament to my character that after everything you put me through I am still able to love, and trust others. It sucks to know that percise that fact is the reasoning for why I am the one sitting in these shoes. A higher power decided that it was I who was the stronger and the better person. It is the reason why I am the scarfice rather than you. Perhaps it is a blessing that you can't see the lessons of our interactions the way I can. I mean, if I were in your shoes, the guilt and self dissapointment would swallow me whole. I don't know which would be worse, knowing I was a complete piece of shit or knowing that I just gave up on someone capable of never ending devotion. Maybe in this way God is merciful afterall.
You're all assholes,
and he never will be
6 years ago